Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emo. Show all posts

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Things that annoy me...(just me,maybe not others)

Salam...

Hi.

This is basically a ranting post. So don't like don't read.

1st annoying thing: Blog (Me, My, Mine)


Why I write blog? To be famous? To be known (yes it is similar but not in the same context)? To show people who I am and how 'great' my writing is? (well, I know that I am not good at all...) So why I bother blogging? Lets just say that it is for my sanity and so that I can let go and write what is on my mind...Isn't that the purpose for blogging? If you hate me, why you even bother following my blog? I didn't force you to...so why bother?

That is one of the thing that annoys me to no end...I am not someone that seeks for popularity so this is definitely not the reason for me to blog. But it really gets to me when people say that do not use this line like "this is my blog, don't like don't read" or "this is my blog. I can write whatever I want". Isn't that correct? The line I mean... This IS MY blog...MY personal things and thoughts so I have ALL the rights to write whatever I want. So if you hate me for saying that, stop following me. Do I care if you stop? I know I don't. Stop following me. It is annoying to hear you say that (talking to people who think that they've said/written that I should stop using that line).

2nd annoying thing: If the door is locked, it means that somebody is in that room

Does that need telling? God~ If you tried to open any door and it is locked and you can't open it, it means that SOMEBODY IS USING IT. duuuh~ Do I need to yell that I am in that room? Do I????? It is a common sense people. Door will not be automatically locked. This is not the hotel where it is automatically closed like that. I don't know that the bathroom door is 'automatically locked' in this house. If YOU cant OPEN it, give up and wait for a while. THERE IS SOMEBODY in it. So wait...Don't go knocking and ask

"Is anybody inside?"

It makes me wanna say,

"No. The door is automatically locked and the shower and the light turns on automatically when NOBODY is inside."

Duh~

3rd annoying thing: Knocking non-stop

For the love of God. If people do that, it will drive me insane. No, it is no just annoying, it is driving people mad. Can't you just knock for like 3,4 times and wait for a while cause, oh, I dunno...maybe that person is ON the WAY to open the door. So WAIT...It is not like you will die for waiting.

You can knock like that if, let say maybe somebody is chasing you and about to kill you with 7 inch knife or something like that. Or you wanna pee so much it might spill there and then. But to knock just to let others open it for you asap? That is seriously fucking with me and trust me, I will kill you for that (with my look).

4th annoying thing: Talking and advising me like you know me that much

Like seriously? Are you kidding me? Who are you? You are just A FRIEND. You don't know me that much okay? Even my parents don't know me that much. I know myself better than you. It is not like you are my best friend that is like my other half. You are just someone that happens to know me a bit. So stop acting like you know me inside out k? You are not my brain or emotion and you are definitely not me. So just stop.

5th annoying thing: Waking me up to ask if I am sleeping

Hell to the no. You will receive my dagger look if you do that. I mean, what the hell are you trying to achieve/do when you look at my comfortably sleeping face and asked me,

"are you sleeping?"

well, if that happens, I just wanna quote something from tumblr in this situation.

"No, I am not sleeping. I am practicing to play dead."

God...are you that thick headed?

6th annoying thing: Disturbing me when I am watching my fav video/movies/ the most important scene/ climax

Do I need to tell you that it is helluva annoying? Why? Do I need to explain why? ughhh~

7th annoying thing: saying that I shouldn't procrastinate when my assignment is due in another 2 hours

Really? Do you need to throw that to my face now? If my hand is not busy to type furiously, I would've strangle you for sure. So why don't you be a good person and backs off or HELP in that situation instead of saying "You deserve it". Believe it, I KNOW THAT ALREADY.

8th annoying thing: telling me that I shouldn't eat my favourite food and acting as if you are my dietician. 

I really feel like punching people who said that. I mean, who are you? If you wanna be health freak, then go ahead and be one. Leave me out from that obsession of yours. I am not interested okay.

It is annoying okay when I am about to eat my chocolate and you go all wise and say:

"You know that chocolate can make you fat and it will rot your teeth?"

and I will say (in my brain but not by my mouth)

"Yeah? Well fcuk you. May you rot too"

9th annoying thing: Calling me fat and saying that I shouldn't wear this and that cause it will makes me look fatter

Well, thank you for telling me about the obvious. If you offer your opinion nicely, then I will appreciate that. But no, you have to go all the way and say this instead,

"That is such a small size. Aren't you bigger than that? Shouldn't you give that size to me instead? Why don't we switch cause I am smaller than you."

and then you have to repeat that again and again to my face.

Well, thank you for downgrading me. It feels much better when you say it. Thank you....you jerk.

10th annoying thing: Saying that I spend too many time downloading and gathering movies but...you ended up asking for new movies from me

Isn't that just great?



Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Ya. Saya suka membebel dan buat muka. So what?

Salam

Hi....

WARNING: ENTRY EMO. TAK SUKA JANGAN BACA. KALAU ADA YANG TERASA ITU ADALAH DISEBABKAN SIAPA MAKAN CILI, DIALAH TERASA PEDASNYA.

Yeap. Entry yang agak emo kan? hmmm...x de la emo sangat. Cuma panas sket. Yeap. Ak suka membebel dan buat muka. So what? Kalau korang x suka ak membebel dan buat muka, jangan wat ak naik angin boleh x?

Ak x faham macam mana ada org yg boleh duduk saja dan x buat papa2 sedangkan sekeliling dia macam tongkang pecah dah. Boleh ja duduk lepak dan buat x tahu. Basuh pinggan, periuk,kuali pun x mahu. Boleh ja basuh pinggan sendiri dan biarkan pinggan, kuali,periuk yang lain terbiar dekat sinki. Alasan? Ak pun x tahu kenapa. Yang pastinya, benda 2 sangatlah menyebabkan ak bengang. Ak saja biar ja benda 2 atas sinki nak tgk siapa akan basuh....hmmm.haraaaam x sentuh. Boleh ja biar kan?

Mmg orang kata, x leh berkira kalau buat kerja, nanti pahala x dapat. Abes 2 maknanya org yg mmg x mau buat kerja ni boleh 'dilepaskan' macam 2 ja la kan? Sbb yang nak buat kerja (sbb x tahan tgk benda2 2) adalah org yang kuat membebel dan buat muka. Jadi orang yg membebel dan buat muka ni jahat la kan sbb post mende ni dan berleter. Tapi kan, kalau org yang kuat membebel dan buat muka ni x buat smua benda 2, hmmm....haraaammmm....abes x gerak kot kerja.

Boleh x...buat kerja x payah ada yang suruh? Kalau x reti, belajar la. Dah besar panjang kot. Jangan pandai cakap ja, buat x mahu. Dah sampai oversea dah, maknanya pandai la 2. Jadi belajar la sayang....Jangan harapkan orang saja...

Maaf kalau ada yang terasa. Yang pati, kalau terasa 2, jadi lepas ni janganlah buat lagi ya?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Loneliness

Salam....

Hi.
Loneliness. Gosh. I hate that word a lot. For me, loneliness is like a snake (or a Boa to be precise). It creeps out and attacked you when you are most vulnerable and exposed. Then it constricts and bind you up so tight, you will feel like you are being suffocated. After that, you either wish for a miracle in which you can escape from it or you give up and succumb to that horrible emotion. If you surrender, then you will be so depressed and you will want some company. Someone that wills say, 'It's okay. I am here with you.' instead of someone that just stare at you blankly, pretend to listen and then walks away without knowing or even caring that you are actually dying from the inside. 

I hate being lonely. I love being around people but not too many people cause I hate being crowded. I love being with some personal and close friends that I know care for me and is there when I needed them. Here I haven't found anybody that cares and want to be there like my Malaysian friend. It is not to say that people here didn't care but the feeling is different in Malaysia. I feel like an outcast here. Sometimes I even feel like I don't belong. Like I am just another face in the crowd, unnoticed and not cared for. I wish that I can find somebody that just like Hema or A'an. Well, I am hoping too much eh? Friends like them did not come often. 

Will I ever get to find someone like that in Wellington. Gosh. I just wish that you are here now. Cause the boa in me is constricting too tightly; I cannot breathe. I hate Wellington. 

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Ter...Lebih Emosi

Salam...
Hi...

Okay. I know that I shouldn't feel this way. It is not good, not good at all. Seriously. My emotion is off the grid right now. I never thought that I would love a group like this and believe me when I say I do know that I shouldn't feel this way. I should never be obsessed about things like this. It is just entertainment and believe me when I say that I tried to curb my feeling and I did tried to run away from this feeling but it is just not working. Please don't detox me from my current obsession. Yes, I am telling you this and you know who you are. For a while, just let me be okay?

Hmmm...JYJ...HoMin...they are killing me right now. Like seriously killing me. I am going almost nuts for them. Reading news about them brings me more pain than happiness. Why? Well, Cassies know the current situation of our beloved band now and things looks like hell now. I am happy for the success of JYJ and HoMin for their new album but it is heartbreaking not to see them as 5. I'm off the grid now because of SYC and the news about  Jae's Nine song. OMG. That song is so sad. I feel a huge lump in my throat as I read the news.

Yes, we are still AKTF but the hope seems kinda distant now. I guess we all know that. I guess what A'an told me is kinda correct too. She told me that I am becoming more manic-fan than her but I think that I am more emotional towards them than being a fanatic. Okay. I am just rambling. Ignore me. T___T